Hello!

I'm Josceline-Joy
I'm a bubbly, Disney fanatic, peanut-butter loving, tattoo obsessed, adrenaline junkie.

 

I hold 1st Class Degree in Psychology from Uni, and 1st Class Degree in ANOREXIA recovery from life. 

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I have two big tattoos (one down my back, and the other on my thigh) and at one point had around 14 piercings. I drink too much Gin (if there is such a thing as too much Gin...) and LOVE anything that gets your blood pumping...
I've skydived twice, run the tough mudder, swam with leopards & stingrays, and enjoy whizzing down hill on my push bike really really REALLLLLY fast.


You'll most likely find me pretending to be a Ninja in the gym, or listening to a good ol' podcast whilst whipping up some sort of creative culinary concoction in the kitchen. Often followed by a bodged up post on Instagram because I'm not savvy with a camera...  
 

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More recently I graduated from The University of Surrey (Hooray!) with a 1st Class Honours in Psychology, and am currently applying to do my MSc in Health Psychology #StudentLifeForever.

 All "Ass" and No "Class" ... How I go a 1st baffles the mind!

All "Ass" and No "Class" ... How I go a 1st baffles the mind!

So...That's Great, But What Do I Do?

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I am a mental health campaigner, and avid fundraiser, associated with the UKs leading Eating Disorders Charity Beat.
If that's not enough to keep me busy, I have twice been a guest speaker on BBC2 popular news programme Victoria Derbyshire Show, and have an article published on the Neuropathology of Anorexia in the British Psychological Society (BPS) student Journal. More locally I keep involved in public speaking events at Schools, University. 

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For most of this year [2018] I've been living on a ship working as a Youth Counsellor for the worlds most popular cruise company. Spending my days Island hopping my way around the Caribbean and Bahamas.... pretty cool, I know! 

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It may be cliché (sorry guys...) but I find an immense amount of joy helping others develop a healthy relationship with themselves; their food, bodies, exercise, and just generally feel badass in their own skin.

I specialise in educating people on the dangers of eating disorders, there development, and how to develop a healthy mind-set around food, body image and stress management (because eating disorders aren't about food really guys!!! Confusing stuff i know). I also help people develop resilience against the high pressured and perfectionist standards that we live in.
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I started this site as a way to reach out and help those recovering from disordered eating, applying my background in Psychology alongside personal experience. It has since developed to cover a wide range of health and wellbeing topics centred around behaviour change, self-development, mental health awareness, and more recently my love for cooking, food and nutrition.

All of which I believe central to living a fun-filled, joyful and fulfilling life

"Through Their Eyes..." is the section I set up solely for the purpose of raising awareness about mental and emotional health set-backs, and in hope that others who have been (or are going through) similar situations can find comfort and hope in these journeys. 

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I do not believe in a "one-size fits all" approach when it comes to behaviour change and coaching.
There are many evidence based techniques for promoting a healthier, more self-aware and proactive lifestyle. All have their place to play and can be applied to everyone at some level.

I draw on common principles and practices found within psychology, specifically health psychology, coachingcognitive behaviour (CBT),  intuitive eating, and motivational psychology

Scroll down further to hear my story from struggling to survive to living and thriving 

 

Me, Myself and Ana

Deciding to recover was just one tiny step on the long and winding road (yup the exact one the Beetles sang about...)  but it taught me how to be tough, how to fight back, and never to take my health (or life) for granted.

I never understood properly where this illness sprung from.
I was always the "foody one" in the group. I did a little bit of sport and dance, but food was never an issue.
Body image wise, meh, I was aware I was maybe curvier than the other girls from a young age. I remember my mum having to sew patches in a pair of jeans because my thighs rubbed away the material so much. And I definitely did not look like the popular girls with their toned legs and trim tummies.
But I had loads of friends, and bumbled my way through school bubbly and care free.

Through the recovery process  I learnt a lot about the function my anorexia played.
My illness was my way of cutting off all my emotions.
All frustrations, stresses, past pains, and deep self-hatred were projected on my body.
Starving it. 
Shrinking it. 
Neglecting it.
Whilst daily I remained tortured by a thunder storm of negativity that perpetuated these behaviours.

I was no longer a daughter, or sister, or that bubbly blue-eyed best friend to so many.
Just vacant.
A depressed and preoccupied, ghost of my former self.

Anorexia, and eating disorders in general, are complex.
As clinical disorders they do not sit comfortably on their own distinct classification, but share many strings with anxiety disorders, obsessive compulsive disorders (OCD) and depression, making them hugely complex disorders to treat

I would cut up vegetables into the teeniest tiniest of pieces. Weigh food meticulously and even have to cook wearing plastic gloves too afraid to touch or smell food. I’d hide food in pockets of coats, throwing lunches down the sanitary bins in college, and in hospital wiping the peanut butter (I know me wasting peanut butter what?!?!) under tables.
That growl in my tummy became unrecognisable and I lived off black coffee to push me through my days.

Any ritual that was broken would cause obscene amounts of anxiety and panic attacks, to the point I even attempted to quieten the storm in my head by taking my own life.

My nutrient deprived brain was not getting the fuel to function, causing low mood, disrupted hunger signals, and even discontinuing the flow of blood to my vital organs

It was a dark time.
Not just for myself, but for my family and besotted friends who were literally watching me die before their eyes.


 

The Road to Recovery

Recovery Was Less About Liking My Body, and More About Liking Myself.


 I experienced many different treatments on my recovery journey, and relapsed a lot.
The majority of my recovery happened when I was not being under any professional care, but when I consciously made the decision to stop being victim to my own state, and actually start believing that I could be proactive and build back my body and mind, and ultimately take control of my life. 

Unfortunately, this did not mean I woke up to my world being filled with rainbows and Unicorns, and eating certainly did not became a walk in the park overnight.
Motivation went through highs and lows, as did my anxiety. 
Tears were shed. 
Endless sleepless nights.
Monotonous days.
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Hard work. 
An amazing therapist.
Hard work. 
Incredible friends.
Hard work
Beginning to build a future outside of my illness.
Hard work. 
Faith
All these and more enabled me to persist and strengthen my body and mind.  
And now I am five years free of anorexia five years healthier.  


From Surviving To Thriving

 

My journey from chronic illness to joy-filled recovery lead me to experience mental illness through new eyes.
 It's been a blessing in disguise and, strangely, I don't think I would trade back those years, because they have made me into the determinedambitious women I am today.

Teaching me that nothing is beyond my reach.
To be gentle on myself
To challenge the relevance of my thoughts and the intentions behind my behaviours
To have self belief in place of self-destructiveness
To be positive whilst remaining realistic 

 I feel I have been given a valuable insight into the world of mental health, giving me an immense ability to help a lot of people who are suffering rebuild their lives. 

I long for no one else to experience the pain that having an eating disorder, or mental health illness, creates.

Now well into my 20's (how did that happen...) I remain fascinated by our brain and behaviour.
The complex interplay between our external and internal environments in their ability to shape, break and remake our health.
I remain dedicated to helping promote health in mind, body and soul